Welp time for me to make a list of shit I want to do this summer that may or may not actually happen like I do every year.

• Go to the lake.
• Go camping at least 3 times.
• Spend at least 5 hours total at Hume Lake cuz I’m gonna die if I don’t. 
• Go to my grandparent’s house with hella weed like last summer. 
• Go swimming a shit ton.
• GET. A. JOB.
• Pass my classes at MJC.
• Spend time with people who actually want to spend time with me.

This is a boring list sorry.

Hi hello, just wanted to let you all know that yesterday was super great and I’m gonna tell you why.

• I finished ALL my schoolwork in time to turn it in (I turn it in every Friday at 9am and it’s almost never completely done)
• I also did an entire project in an hour
• I got to see my little sister do a really cute dance at her school and it was adorable even though the rest of the event was annoying as fuck
• I went tanning and swimming and had a bit of girl time with Alex
• I went to an awesome barbecue
• I got to see Nick and I see him all the time but still it makes any day good (:

Anywho yeah I liked yesterday. Today’s kinda boring. 

When I move out, I will:

• Burn candles for as long as I want
• Take bong rips in the living room, kitchen, hallway, bathroom, and bedroom
• Be naked whenever I feel like it, which is most of the time
• Play punk music and Wu Tang
• Do whatever I want with my boyfriend, whenever I want, wherever I want
• Throw away days drinking
• Laugh and cry as loud as I want to without anybody telling me that someone is sleeping
• Read without people interrupting me all the time
• Bake beautiful creations whenever the mood strikes

Things I have to save for over the course of this year.

• Prom dress/possibly prom tickets
• Pin up stuff for my Halloween costume (I planned it like a week after Halloween ended)
• A car? 
• Swimsuit fabric and pattern
• Weed for 4/20 in SF
• Green hair dye for the wedding in March 
• A dress for the wedding in March 

There might even be more. The problem is I DO NOT HAVE ALL THIS MONEY BUT ALL OF IT IS VERY IMPORTANT.

Like I even took a couple things off this list but it’s still a really expensive list. I think my parents will probably help pay for the prom dress and possibly the swimsuit stuff if I come up short, but other than that I don’t foresee a lot of help here. 

I need a fucking job. 

Shit I have to bake for.

• I have to make like 5 different types of cookies for Caity and Justin even though I’m super late because I promised them.
• I have to make chocolate chip and oatmeal raisin cookies for Friday.
• I have to make brownies for Jessica because I left her party early like 2 months ago.
• I might make a cake for Friday too I don’t know.
• Uhh I’m sure there’s more I always have something to bake.

So I had my like, my fourth day of birthday celebrating today.

I met up with Luke and Alex at like 4pm and then we went to Big 5, and then we shmoked at Big Valley Christian which was fulfilling, and then my dad picked me up but we smoked more before that. And then I came home and ate chinese food and cake and got gifts and it was great. 

So far through all this I got

• A red leather jacket, which is actually fucking awesome
• A kindle
• A black leather bag
• Love

Whatever I have leather shit and a kindle I’m fine.

Things I have no idea how to dress for.

• Going to a strip club
• The birthday thingy my parents are doing for me
• Seeing Sophia
• My date

So far my 18th birthday seems like it’s gonna be awesome.

Which is saying a lot because I really don’t have good birthdays like… ever. Like, I didn’t even get a sweet 16. 

But right now the things related to my birthday are

• Justin and Caity are gonna take me to a strip club, which is gonna be fucking badass.
• Caity says she’s gonna get me a pipe, which is also badass.
• I’m gonna go to SF and visit Sophia, which is fucking awesome.

I might have a real party but I dunno and if I don’t I won’t be that upset, although I would like to share my birthday with erybody if possible. It’s just that I probably won’t have money so yeah.

This all probably doesn’t sound that great but it really is so much more than I even thought would happen. I mean, obviously shit happens and stuff sometimes doesn’t work out, but I’m just gonna hope for the best.

I like making lists. This is a list about Halloween.

Shit I need

• Red lipstick/lipgloss
• Four watermelons
• A pumpkin
• Cigarettes
• Booze
• Weed
• Candles
• Glowsticks
• Red nail polish 

This is the most normal list in the world.

Dating requirements.

• Must enjoy reading outside of school.
• Must not be a pussy ass bitch.
• May not bitch at me for personal choices (ex: smoking weed, smoking cigarettes, eating meat, etc.)
• Must respect my family.
• I must consider them attractive.
• If they say I look cute when I’m mad I will break their nose and the relationship will end.

I really don’t think this is too much to ask for, but apparently people like this DO NOT EXIST. Just kidding I found him

HOPE FOR ALL 

Kids names.

I am naming my children these names and that is final.

Alice Marie

Lola Chase

Jim Cletus

Friedrich (Fredrick) James

IF ANYBODY STEALS THESE I WILL MAKE A PARTY HAT WITH YOUR ANUS. 

Things I love:

• Pills that involve opiates
• Muscle relaxers
• Weed
• Alcohol
• Cigarettes
• MDMA
• Ribs
• Taco truck
• Chinese food
• In N Out
• Mostly drugs and food
• My cats

Things I don’t love:

• Being sober
• People dying 
• Not being in San Francisco.